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An impromptu act!

just beautiful @11:34 AM

Monday, May 23, 2005

It was Saturday evening when I suddenly had this bang-up idea to follow Mr Ben's friend back to Perth where she studies. I said my thought out loud and ask him if its feasible. He checked with her and it seems like the devised idea might just work! ~rejoice~ Now all that was left was to seek the approval of my overprotective parents. Ha like that was gonna be easy! :(
I told them on Sunday and amazingly they gave me the go-ahead.. Though not straightaway and with some criteria of their own, I was ecstatic! ~dancing in circles happy~
Mr Ben then went with me to People's Park Complex to get the plane tickets.. And boy was it expensive! We bought 4D as well coz I felt lucky! ~laughs~Anyway, I got the tix at $500+ including taxes.. Phew.. At least that part's settled.. I gotta go pay the travel agency the rest of the money and I'll be almost set! Yea!

Nooks and crannies

just beautiful @4:57 PM

Friday, May 20, 2005

I found out later that his friend did ask if she should sit behind. Guess what Mr Ben said? He said "never mind la, no need de". See how thoughtful he is? He doesn't care about my feelings at all judging by what he said. And he didn't even make an effort to include me in their conversations at all which says a lot. I was being dismissed! I wasn't hurt that I was made to sit behind but I was hurt that Mr Ben didn't give a damn about my feelings. ~grr~
The fact that he knew I cried in the car and didn't even ask why also hurts. If he was concerned enough, he can jolly well stop the car somewhere and check if I was all right regardless of who was in the car. Right? I concede that I was quite demanding in asking Mr Ben to fetch Cas and me to and fro. That's why I compromised by asking him to drop us off at Holland coz it's high time I got out of the car and leave them to their previous plans, so as to make up for my insolence. But no, the dolt actually got the cheek to accuse me first! Man... (pun intended!)

Mixed-ups

just beautiful @3:43 AM

I simply love to see my friends smile.. It's rewarding and satisfying somehow to know that you made their day. I wouldn't mind going the extra mile at all.
I wanted to do something special for Eve to mark her 18th bday. So Cas and me decided to surprise her with a cake no matter where she would be. To do so, I would need to seek the help of Mr Ben (he doesn't like me to call him that, but what to do? It's my blog! =p). In case you don't know, Mr Ben has gotten his driving licence recently. And he's at my mercy! (he said so!)
He told me he had plans to have supper with his friend who just came back to S'pore for a week. I acknowledged that but I wanted him to help me with our plan so I requested him to drive me to Orchard to pick up Cas who was working that day and then send us to Eve's place in order to surprise her.
He went to pick up his friend first (his friend is a girl) coz its more convenient. When he picked me up at Holland V (i went Swensen there to get an ice-cream cake), his friend was already sitting in front so I got in the back seat. I really don't mind sitting behind but they hardly remember I was there at all! Meaning they disregard my presence. Which was quite awful of them (actually its jus him) since he is like my Mr Ben.. So of course I pluck in my trusty ipod to listen to. I was hurt.
When we reached paragon's taxi stand, Cas wasn't there yet so we drove one round back. The 2nd time, she stil wasn't there yet. I panicked coz we can't remain there and everybody's waiting. So I called her and sorta hollered at her lateness. She yelled at me back and hang up on me. I cried immediately coz everything was so mixed up. Cas didn't make me cry, she was just the catalyst.
Cas got into the car and saw that I was covering my face with my pink cushion. She straightaway knew what was going on and got me tissues. She apologised and then sayang me. I do like to be sayang-ed. Cas's really a very fast girlfriend. She saw Mr Ben's friend sittin in front and then got angry on my behalf at Mr Ben for letting me sit behind. Ha, served him right.
Luckily got Cas to talk to me on the trip to Eve's. If not, I wouldn't know what to do. Eve was so happy when we surprised her with the ice-cream cake! I'm so glad. ~giggles~ We sang her a bday song, took a couple of pictures and hurriedly cut the cake. Coz Mr Ben and his friend were waiting for us downstairs, so we had to work fast.
Got them some cake as well, to compensate them for waiting. Then I told Mr Ben to drop Cas and me off at Holland coz its more convenient and I think I have taken up enough of their time. Anyway, Ste's coming to fetch us for supper so no worries.
We went to this restaurant at Mount Faber. It was totally awesome! The view's fantastic and the atmosphere's completely relaxing.. Then Mr Ben msged me and sarcastically thanked me for ps-eding him. This was when I got really mad.

Cheers babe! It's your bday!

just beautiful @7:08 PM

Thursday, May 19, 2005

It was a huge day for my darling girl Eveline yesterday. It was her 18th bday! Whoopee! Cas, Eve, CindY deaR, Ferlyn (Cas's friend) and mE went black to celebrate Eve's bday..Mr Ben and me went to pick CindY deaR up after passing me my driving stuff and he proceeded to send us both to Orchard to meet Eve.. Luckily she could get in by borrowing ic from another friend coz we checked and the door bitch said she's not allowed to go in as her bday ain't till 12. Sheez.. What unyielding rules..
There was this funny episode whereby this 30-odd blubbery lady started to shake her booty and all on the podium.. She became the centre of attraction almost immediately..~laughs~ Both Eve and CindY deaR instantly whipped out their hps and took videos.. So evil! Lol
We were all dancing near the dance floor at one corner and there were like 5 of us.. It was pretty squeezy but still people kept trying to cut in between and behind us.. Like HEllo?! Some of us are trying to dance here! My girlfriends were forced to make way for these people just about all the time.. I decided by myself no less, to do something about it..~evil laughter~ A bunch of people started to stream pass us again.. In midway when they least expected it, I stepped in forcefully thus blocking their way. I'm not exactly small-sized, in fact I think I'm vastly built.. They stopped short behind me promptly and veer in the opposite direction. Ha..There you go. See how easy it is? =p
We left black close to 3am and went for supper at Bencoolen Street..It was my favourite part of the night! Food! ~grins slyly~ I had cheese egg prata, iced milo and johnny's combo which was actually chicken roti john coupled with mushrooms and cheese..Totally sweet! Up till the point the food arrived, Eve's bf still hasn't msg or call to wish her a happy bday.. Poor Eve but she still have us no matter what! Happy Birthday Eveline Dear! Muacks!

Late night..Again

just beautiful @5:27 PM

Wednesday, May 18, 2005

My clock's malfunctioning. Like totally screwed up man.. I really must stop sleeping at such ungodly hours. Its either I woke up late and then I sleep late or I went out late and reach home even later.
Yesterday had a majong session at Mr Ben's.. Not that I really played. Technically, I did but I didn't really know what was going on.. I just don't get it. Mr Ben was sitting beside me telling short of instructing me what to do with what. So I generally know but specifically I don't..~grr~
Basically, my night flew pass with a game I don't quite understand, a string of vulgarities expressively gnarled by guys (who else?), crusades against the sleepy monster and also the urge to eat excessively.
Totally worn out.. But at least I finally registered at the driving centre! Ha.. Didn't think I would do it, did you?

The spotless mind or rather mine

just beautiful @3:57 AM

Tuesday, May 17, 2005

I just finished watching eternal sunshine of the spotless mind.. I feel melancholic somehow.. I still do. Simple little things can make me cry. I think I'm too sensitive for my own good..~shrugs~
Today has been satisfying.. I finally gotten my much desired cushions: one huge pink one for me and a tiny blue one for Mr Ben from Ikea! Sweet! =) Had the car washed too.. It was totally in need of one. Then I went to meet Cas and Eve to chill.. Had chocolate desert at Maestro..Pure heaven!
I feel quite good about my life right now.. Have 3 awesome girlfriends and Mr Ben by my side.. I'm thankful, really..~laughs~Although I'm financially tight now without a job but things could be so much worse. Agree?
Well, I still have not registered at the driving centre yet, nor gotten any books to read, nor have my hp fixed.. I'm such a procrastinator. I cant stand myself sometimes..Hurr.. Eve's bday is coming and we are going black to celebrate! ~jumps for joy~Cant wait..

So let's talk...

just beautiful @8:18 PM

Sunday, May 15, 2005

Yes talking through things helps..But only if both parties are willing to listen and take constructive criticism..You see, this is where the crux of the problem lies. Nobody likes criticisms and hence talking comes to a standstill. I dun like to be cornered and when I am, I did the only option available to me, that is, I lash out..
Is the little things really so important to you? I couldn't give you an answer because I wanted to be sure and I aren't sure yet..I know it isn't fair to you but you knew the circumstances before..I have baggages and its really hard to let go..I'm tryin, really..
But you keep pressing me..for answers that eludes me. Its a vicious cycle. You ask, i avoid, you become unhappy, we part on bad terms.. Is this the way you wan? For both of us to be unhappy? I enjoy the conversations we have. The fun ones as well as the serious ones..Isn't it enough? At least for now?
You hurt me with your actions and words sometimes but I let it pass because I never told you I like you and thus I cant ask you for more..What a fix..

A series of unfortunate events

just beautiful @1:53 PM

Saturday, May 07, 2005

Yesterday started out badly.. It was the epitome of misfortune. I know I know, deal with it right? But I need to let off steam.. Bad things come in threes? They are lying.. Whoever they are..

Anyway, my day went like this: supposed to meet cindY deaR (my better half!) for a movie, specifically wet dreams. Its at 4, so I timed it perfectly to reach there at 5 minutes to 4. Meaning: I'm late..Again. As soon as I reach my place downstairs, the strap of my favourite maryanne clutch (actually I only have one, but that's a remote point ok) broke.. I could only watch in disbelief as it made its way onto the muddy ground below..Sheez! Well, the huge 'plomp' splashed mud onto my legs and I have to make my way back home to change bag and clean off..Once again, I made my way downstairs again..I crossed the road and subconsciously touched my ear lobes..Eh, nothing leh! Then it hit me..My expensive flower earrings gone! Argh..So I went back to the scene of the incident to look for it, staring at the ground like an imbecile..Pathetic right? Can't find! I let out a uncouth f**k and stomped off..Grr..As ya all guessed, I didn't get to watch wet dreams coz I was late.. I bought 3 pairs of earrings to make up for my great loss and also ended up watching triple X and it was not bad at all!

After the movie, I was supposed to meet Mr. Ben to go Botanic Gardens to eat the long awaited for, foie gras burger.. He promised that he won't be late coz he knows that the last order is at 7.30pm. I walked to Somerset station full of hope and feeling extremely glad coz I finally will get to eat it..He was supposed to pick me up at 7.10 sharp. But I waited there like 20 minutes? I got angrier as the minutes passed.. If it was any other day, I really have no qualms about waiting..But it sure wasn't. And again I stomped off.. I'm entitled to, right?

He called after a while and stupid me, I picked up the call..And I proceeded to give him the whereabouts of my location..(what was I thinking?) He found me and I gave him prissy attitude to the max.. He totally deserved it, in my book..Geez

Pilot

just beautiful @7:24 PM

Friday, May 06, 2005

I'm going to make a list and stick to it this time..watch me.

The whatnot...

1) learn driving and pass

2) get a job..any job

3) do something different to my stubborn hair

4) stop giving in to my friendly urges to eat

5) start saving..when i get a job..ha

6) begin an exercise regime..so to speak

7) get 10 hours of beauty sleep everyday

8) acquire brand new red spectacles

9) fix my handphone

10) sleep early

11) get a mother's day gift for my dear mama

12) get books to read

my lucky number twelve! what do ya all think?