Have you ever felt so overwhelmed by life that you can't help but take a step back? Have you ever felt so way out of place that you wish to just run away? Have you ever felt so empty and desolate coz you had the life sucked out of you when you had been on top of the world?
No matter how many times we been through it, when we thought we can handle it, the blows keep coming. And sometimes when you wanna go back to where you were before, you just can't do that anymore.
Bread and butter
justbeautiful @2:34 AM
Monday, June 27, 2005
The last couple of days have been great. The satisfaction that i've gotten from working my butt off is immeasurable and it sure feels good to be earning my own keep. I finally have the purchasing power that i desperately craved for. I have uncontrollable urges to spend so i gotta do something to substain my own livelihood. There, i admit it. I do have incorrigible spending habits! So be it. I'll work ok.
Bittersweet...
justbeautiful @12:49 AM
Wednesday, June 22, 2005
Its been a long time since i had such fun with Jem. We used to call each other names and stuff.. And there were no hard feelings.. I think.. Ha We had a routine last time but i forgot. Now 'm greedy and he's gay.. ~laughs~ The memories hit me hard. I truly enjoy your company Jem.
Don't give me hokums
justbeautiful @11:27 PM
Tuesday, June 21, 2005
Surprisingly, Mr Ben gave me a bouquet of flowers today. Its my absolute favourite, lilies! But m'not sure what's the occasion.. And i finally got to watch Benji! Benji's adorable.. It furthers affirm my determination to save up for a dog. I don't understand why we have to talk about stuff.. Gives me a massive headache whenever you wanna talk about stuff.. So don't tell me you wanna talk about stuff.. I had enough of stuff!
Pepped up!
justbeautiful @12:16 AM
Sunday, June 19, 2005
Met a girl from work today.. Very interesting person. Quit her full time job to pursue something she wants. Will i be brave enough to do that when i have a stable job? Talking to her urges me to go do the things i always wanted to do. A sign? Maybe.. Or maybe she just encouraged me to go after what i want. I don't quite know.
Today
justbeautiful @4:20 AM
Saturday, June 18, 2005
Time: 0420am
Today:
went to send my cousin off to bangkok. received a call from agency to go for a job briefing. rushed from changi to newton. late for dinner with YC and BZ. got a scolding from YC. eavesdropped on a conversation.
Lessons learnt today:
when you thought you had everyone figured out, something will change your mind. when things go awry, reflect on yourself first. i realized I have a whole lot to be thankful for. Cindy is my best friend.
Rejoice!
justbeautiful @2:36 AM
Thursday, June 16, 2005
And kudos to Stewart for winning over my deaR Caslyn's heart! Caslyn's face was aglow with happiness.. I'm so glad for them!
PS: Stewart, you better not hurt Cas. If you attempt to do so, i'll kick you where it hurts. Most. As well as all other boyfriends of my dear friends.. ~evil laughter~
At least one good thing happened today.
Jaded
justbeautiful @1:02 AM
World-weary and I have nowhere to rest my bleary soul.
Shutting people out of my world. Deliberately.
Running and hiding seems like the best thing right now.
I need a break.
I'm letting go.
In retrospect...
justbeautiful @11:35 PM
Monday, June 13, 2005
Have been meaning to blog for a very long time... somehow just couldnt summon up the energy to do it.. Guess now's a good time to start.. The past couple of weeks passed by in a blur.. newfound friends.. ameliorated friendship.. responsibility.. relationships.. hurt feelings to soothe.. inadequacy to overcome.. it's takin a toll on me..
I feel life is passing me by..and i'm silently watching it.. helplessly.
At the end of the day, when you have gotten the things you initially wanted, you'd realise it isn't as important as you tink it is..
Relationships and love are overated... and its not helping any that my EQ's really low..
I'm afraid.. so afraid that i would feel the emptiness inside me..again.
I want to let go and i need to let go..
Lazy me..
justbeautiful @5:19 PM
Thursday, June 02, 2005
Back from Perth already and i should have learnt something like be independent, don't reply on others etc.. Apparently not..
Still the same old me.. But i resolved to try and sleep by 12 midnight everyday starting from tonight and get up early.. So that i can get more things done. I said try.. Its not a rule.
And i will do my best to upload my perth pictures soon.. Lol
crowned
There's a girl named RENE who is a glutton. Who eats anything she can get her hands on. She can't get enough of chocolates. Same goes for her yami yoghurt. And her fried mars bar.
adorations
Lilies and orchids are her favourite flowers. She loves french pedicures, mascaras, ribbons, laces, colours. She loves kate spade. She loves to cuddle in bed with a book and a mug of hot chocolate. She loves shiny and glittering stuff. She also has a fixation on the colour green. She's desperately trying to pick up mahjong from mr teo. She loves trying out new food and interesting places. She loves being a december baby. She has got a dose of wanderlust in her. And of course she loves shopping. She loves her family which only consist of her mok mok and papa. And she adores her darling mr teo.
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fixations
Her list of restaurants
annalakshmi black angus rice table
desire brazil churrascaria
brewerkz cafe modestos hog's breath kuishinbo waraku shashlik
v tea room
wishlist
hp and the deathly hallows junk food tees
dkny watch
gucci tote
coach signature stripe tote
prada handbag
chanel 2-way cake
stila treatment powder
revlon super lustrous lipgloss skinny jeans
cheap monday skinny jeans
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